Until The Day Breaks

 I am frail. Shattered. Broken. Aching. Longing. Desperate. 

Afraid.

Stepping into a very new place...terrified beyond all measure.

That's me.

But then, there is my Savior.

He is Tender, Kind, Gentle, Compassionate.

A Hero. A Warrior. A Victor.

The Lion and the Lamb.

Does it not just stir your heart?

How I want my heart to just know it and beat for it. For His Presence. He sees me. He knows me. He cares for me. He beckons me. He draws me in. He delights in me. He rejoices over me. He intercedes for me. He calls me His Lily, His Flower. My Heart, a Garden.

Every time. Every time tragedy strikes. Every moment in which sorrow overwhelms my heart...

I have the choice to turn away from Him, or turn to Him.

And the Enemy will attack and assail with lies and lies and lies and fear and the temptation to despair.

Letting go of the pretenses now. This is something deeper than it appears. This is a soul battle. 

Suffering...the design of the Enemy to destroy your Faith. The design of God to build your Faith and prove it genuine and true and pure and real before yourself and others.  

Born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, ⁴to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, ⁵who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. ⁶In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, ⁷so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. ⁸ Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, ⁹obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
-1 Peter 1 

So here is my proclamation through the storm, out of the depths of desperation, sorrow, longing, anguish, fear, agony, aching, heartache:

My God is greater. I will trust Him. I am frail and broken, but He is STRONG. And He will sustain me. His Grace covers me.

My soul my falter and fail, but my God never will.

I will BELIEVE.