The Hurt and the Healer

Pain and sadness has lingered and stayed upon my heart all day long. This happens sometimes. Sometimes the right word, or the right song, or the right thought will come along and awaken something different. But sometimes, the pain just stays. 

All day I have been looking for some answer to the pain...

Perhaps I'm not trusting Him enough...perhaps my eyes are not upon Him enough. 

Isn't there Joy to be found in His Presence?

Certainly, but what brings us rightly into His Presence...but the Blood of the Lamb Who was slain.


In our brokenness, fragility? Indeed, we have no righteousness of our own.

There He Stands, our Advocate, our Savior.


...

And just because the waves are high, and the wind is wild, and turmoil surrounds.

And the pain rages on.

Does not mean that He is not faithful to my heart.

I cannot go around this storm.

I must go through it.

So for a while, pain shall remain. Emotional and spiritual wounds require healing just as physical ones do... And I will not deny myself this time of healing and resting.

I forget sometimes that healing is a process that often is very painful.

The answer to my pain?

What I suspected all along:

He is Faithful.

Why? 

The question that is never far away 
But healing doesn't come from the explained 
Jesus please don't let this go in vain 
You're all I have 
All that remains 

So here I am 
What's left of me 
Where glory meets my suffering 

I'm alive 
Even though a part of me has died 
You take my heart and breathe it back to life 
I've fallen into Your arms open wide 
When the hurt and the healer collide 

Breathe 
Sometimes I feel it's all that I can do 
Pain so deep that I can hardly move 
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You 
Lord take hold and pull me through 

So here I am 
What's left of me 
Where glory meets my suffering 

I'm alive 
Even though a part of me has died 
You take my heart and breathe it back to life 
I've fallen into your arms open wide 
When the hurt and the healer collide 

It's the moment when humanity 
Is overcome by majesty 
When grace is ushered in for good 
And all the scars are understood 
When mercy takes its rightful place 
And all these questions fade away 
When out of the weakness we must bow 
And hear You say "It's over now" 

I'm alive 
Even though a part of me has died 
You take my heart and breathe it back to life 
I've fallen into your arms open wide 
When The hurt and the healer collide 

Jesus come and break my fear 
Awake my heart and take my tears 
Find Your glory even here 
When the hurt and the healer collide [x2] 

Jesus come and break my fear 
Awake my heart and take my tears 
Find Your glory even here

A Better Place

"They're in a better place."

Yes, yes they are. In such a beautiful, glorious, wonderful place. But what remains is the cutting reminder that this is not Home yet. That the pain and grief and separation of death is dark and real and raw and ever so painful...we were never meant to ache like this. To be torn apart and separated like this. But God...is so, so faithful. And as deep as I have been cut by the many losses I have known the last couple years, there is a deep, deep well of Eternal Hope that rises up within me...

And that better place, that meeting Him Face to face. 


That is the most precious dream of my heart.


Because one Day.


That will be REALITY. The Unseen and the Eternal will be before us, and every tear will be wiped away.


We'll see the Rainbow, we'll see the Throne. We'll dance, we'll sing, we will rejoice.


We will stand in awe, gazing upon His Glory and Majesty with our very eyes.


And Wholeness and Home and Beauty will be known in the fullness of our hearts and worship will spring forth from our lips.

We were made for ETERNITY.

We were made to know the Living God.