There is this pain of separation. Of brokenness. Of loss of innocence. Of a world come crashing down.
But there is something so profound within all of this.
So simple, yet so profound. And more beautiful than words. Beautiful and tragic and deep and pure and real and hard and strange to make sense of.
Because the Lord knows all of what I feel deep within my heart. He knows it so very personally and intimately...
The Fall.
And the Cross.
The Father knows the pain of separation. He knows it so, so well. His Heart aches and longs for His People just as I long for my loved ones. He knows what it's like, in the deepest sense, to be separated from the ones His Heart longs for. He knows brokenness. He knows of loss of innocence. He witnessed as the world came crashing down, turning from His Heart. Turning from all what was created to be.
Wholeness to Brokenness. Beauty to Fallen. Pure to Tainted.
The Lies. All the Lies which invaded and inured the World He created and loved.
The Lie that God isn't really GOOD. The Lie that we are on our own. The Lie that God isn't for us after all. The Lie that we can do it on our own.
Rebellion. Disobedience.
Separation. Death.
Spiritual Death.
But that is not the end of the story. He went after our hearts. He did not abandon us in our broken state. He has not abandoned us. He will never abandon us. He will never forsake us.
No...He sent His Son.
And Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ came to Earth, humbly as a newborn babe. He walked the paths that many weary human feet had tread. He wept. He healed. He spoke. He washed His Disciples feet. He fulfilled the words of the Prophets. He sweat blood in anguish. He submitted His Will to the Father in all that He did. He was brutally beaten, and He died a painful, agonizing death on a Cross for our Sins. And as He cried:
"Father, Father, why have you forsaken me?"
The Father turned His Face away.
And Jesus Christ, taking on our sin, experienced that very separation from the Father that was ours. He felt our wounds. Deep, deep, deep, deep, deep. He was pierced for our transgressions. He stepped into the depths of our brokenness and shattered nature and sin. He died for us.
And never was there a darker day in History. But that was not the end of the story.
Because the stone was rolled away.
He conquered death, in VICTORY. By His Wounds we are healed. Washed clean, by the blood of the Lamb. What a Beautiful Savior. He reconciled our hearts with God. Jesus Christ opened the door, that we may have Relationship. That we may have Life. The Relationship and Life we were created to have with the God of the Universe. That we may walk with Him and know Him and love Him and worship Him as we were created to.
And as I mourn the loss of many loved ones...as I mourn the wounded state of my heart and soul. As I sit among the ashes...
As I feel in my gut the reality of this very, very broken, thirsty, desperate, longing world.
I identify with the Father's Heart, I identify with the Cross. And my heart, once separated and broken and far from Him, knows and understands and pursues and longs for His Love and Grace and Truth and Tenderness as never before. My hearts deepest longings stirred and awakened. My Identity found in Him.
I know now that while my pain is real...it is raw and it is deep;
It is not the end of me. It is not the end of my relationships with these dear, sweet people. It is not the end of the Story. Redemption falls upon all of this. His Redemption. His Light. His Grace and Love.
His Holy Spirit dwells within me.
I am still here, in this broken, weary land. My heart is longing for its true Home. But Redemption will come. That Day will Come. My Heart burns within me for that Day. That Eternal Longing burns in my heart and soul. That longing for Jesus.
25 I know that my redeemer lives,
and that in the end he will stand on the earth.
26 And after my skin has been destroyed,
yet in my flesh I will see God;
27 I myself will see him
with my own eyes—I, and not another.
How my heart yearns within me!
and that in the end he will stand on the earth.
26 And after my skin has been destroyed,
yet in my flesh I will see God;
27 I myself will see him
with my own eyes—I, and not another.
How my heart yearns within me!
-Job 19:25-27
Job spoke this out of his immense grief, and it resounds deeply within me as well.
When I at last look into those eyes. Those eyes, burning with Righteousness, Jealousy, Holiness, Majesty, and Love. The Lion and the Lamb.
Redemption's Song is moving upon the Earth. Seek Him. Seek His Heart.
May our hearts yearn within us.
How Love Wins
This is how Love wins, every single time
Climbing high upon a tree where someone else should die
This is how Love heals, the deepest part of you
Letting Himself bleed into the middle of your wounds
This is what Love says, standing at the door
You don’t have to be who you’ve been before
Silenced by His voice, death can’t speak again
This is how Love wins.
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